I was a fool, I wasn’t wise
Never told the truth – though it’s true I never told you lies
Walked away from a good thing
Like I knew what I was doing
Took me til now to realise just what I ruined
Oh darling, I stare at the models on the billboards that look like you
My heart quickens at someone dressed in the bright colours you’d choose
I catch my reflection with shame in my heart
How far I’ve slipped from life since we broke apart
Now you’d see me as I am
If we met today for the first time
The thought makes me want to cry
If you met me today for the first time
I deleted your number, moved your things out of sight
Did all the stuff you do when you’re doing things right
Then I find myself using phrases that you used to
At home I’m hanging pictures of the kind that would appeal to you
Lying on my sofa on a slow afternoon
Wisihing I could re-take those conversations I ended too soon
I think of how I live now with shame in my heart
How far I’ve slipped from life since we broke apart
Now you’d see me as I am
If we met today for the first time
The thought makes me want to cry
If you met me today for the first time
You’d smile right past me now
If you met me today for the first time
Cos now you know your worth
And darling, I’ve learned mine
credits
from NO SUCH PLACE,
released June 17, 2022
Words and music: Stephen McCormick
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